Tuesday, April 10, 2007

I really miss Scotland today. I miss it everyday, but there's something about feeling trapped that makes you long for "home". The City makes me feel that way. The big buildings jammed all around me, so many people, the grime and crime, the roaches and rats. I want to walk through a field of wildflowers, go horseback riding along the beach, sit on top of a mountain, and cry my heart out. Listen for the faintest sound of bagpipes, and the chill that comes with it. A sense of belonging. Feeling part of something much bigger than the daily. I know I made the wrong choice. Being in the big smoke is hard for a country girl. I need peace. I need to hear the birds sing. I feel lost, again.

7 comments:

SaturnJune said...

Reading this makes me want to visit Scotland myself... they always say it's SO beautiful overthere.

bramble said...

I think everyone should visit Scotland sometime in their lives, it's such a magical place, it'll never lose that.

Ed Z said...

I'd like to vist too.

Boogs said...

Maybe we can get convention rates at a cozy Rigg B&B ;)

bramble said...

oh my Mum would love that haha

Karol said...

Though from NY, I lived in Scotland for a little under 3 years and treat it as my second home. I often miss it.

bramble said...

I've been in NY for 3 years now, and I don't know that I'll ever really feel at home here. I love NYC but Scotland is just pure magic to me :-)